Becoming a "Ruth" Woman

I have been looking for a new good book or series to read. (so if you know one, please share) I just haven't really found the one I want to dive into.

Last week one of my verses of the day was out of Ruth. All day I just kept going back to that verse and thinking about Ruth.

I literally am that person that cannot fall asleep without reading, writing or something. That night laying in bed with no book. No thoughts to write. Just laying there wide awake. Then it hit me.

Ruth.

I grabbed my bible. Read through Ruth. One of my favorite verses is from Ruth. You know the one. " wherever you go, I'll go" She is soooooo loyal to her mother in law. Its amazing the love she has for her. The heart of Ruth is amazing. She literally doesn't have to do any of these things for her. In fact she is even asked not to. But she does.

Don't urge me to leave you or turn back. Where you go, I will go and where you stay I'll stay.
Ruth 1:16

YES! YES! YES! I'll go! I WILL FOLLOW YOU! I want to be Ruth. I want to have that servant heart. I want that loyalty. I want to fully put my trust in the Lord. To go where he goes. To go where he leads me. To follow him with such loyalty.

It's not just the loyalty she has. The faith she has. She leaves everything she knows behind. When you first meet Ruth she is described as a pagan. She then finds the Lord and loves and trusts with all of her. She's walks in a loyal love! That's what I want! That's what I need!

A love filled with devotion, commitment and faithfulness. And don't forget loyalty.

If you're in between books or just simply need a pick me up. Flip through Ruth. You won't regret it.

Faithfully yours -

Jess

Mother. Believer. Lover. Dreamer.
Adventure seeker. Wannabe Farmer.
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When I was Ignoring my heart

As I started this process. The whole blogging lifestyle 😉 I prayed and just felt like God was saying there was something in my voice they needed to be heard.

Something in my story that needed to be out here for you guys.

Honestly God and I are still talking about what that is. (Because I don't have a clue yet) so bear with me!

Anyways as I prayed and waited and listened. I felt like I wasn't getting any answers. So I put the blog on the back burner. I then started a little run of anything I could come up with. I have always loved photography but I just felt like I couldn't make a life out of it. I never really tired. After which  came the selling of Mary Kay. (Lasted almost a month). Then came my jewelry dreams. (Which literally lasted until I woke up) Next was my essential oil business! (Which I still sell dōterra, if you interested let me know!!! Oils oils oils!!!) I tried my hand in soaps. Then scrubs. Then lotions. Nothing ever just fit with me. Here recently I took a break from social media and everything me. I took a step back and sit down and prayed. I got nothing then too (or so I thought). I realized I wasn't even sure who I was anymore. Who I wanted to be.

I realized maybe I wasn't getting my answer from God. Because I wasn't truly listening. Everything else had gotten so loud in my life. That I wasn't listening for his voice. I stepped back. I turned off the outside world. Focused on my family. I could see that my kids were suffering from me not being who I needed to be. I spent a few afternoons lounging outside with them. We rode bikes for hours. We built a pretty awesome teepee. We talked about anything and everything. It was just what they needed. They needed me. I needed me. I needed God. That was loud and clear finally.

I prayed for me. (Literally)  Finally I heard him. I felt him in my heart. I could just feel the words pouring out of me. I started a journal at first. I wrote and wrote. But it still wasn't fulfilling me. During this time I prayed for the Lord to put something in front of me.

Finally I just felt like it was the blog. It was for me to share my stories. To share our life. I slowly began to write more in my journals about the things I loved and want you to hear. I also started to become aware of who I am. Who I need to be. Who I want to be.

Mother.
Believer.
Lover.
Dreamer.
Adventure seeker.
Wannabe farmer.

Faithfully yours - Jess

Our Story

Our story

This is where our story begins...well kind of. Our series started about 11 years ago. Blake and I were married on a hot day in July of 2005. I was only 19 but I knew then what I have confirmed now...he is truly the only one who can handle all of me. (Kind of love at first sight thing ).

After the honeymoon phase. The next book in our series started. Called parenthood. It happened rather quickly. Well not actually quickly as it did so suddenly. We had been married a little over a year and I found out I was pregnant. Let me tell you at 21 my world turned upside down! The beginning phases of parenthood were rough. Like REALLY rough. After Ryder a few years later we welcomed another Boy Bronx. Shortly after that we finished the series. (Or so we thought).

The next book for us was the travel stage. We wanted to take the kids everywhere. We bought a camper and just went. We love Colorado! We love hiking fishing biking kayaks. We basically love the outdoors.

During that series Blake and I decided we wanted to start our forever home. (Or so we thought)

We started building a barn. Blake had all these amazing ideas. I just wanted cheap. I wanted a great big house with no payments. Well we didn't get either one. We have our barn house with a nice little payment. This was a rough series. We had lots of ups and downs. Lots of battles. It was hard to build this "forever" home. When every time we looked at it. We wanted something different or it somewhere else. We wanted the same thing.

-Side note... Remember how I mentioned I thought we were done with the welcoming baby stage. During this process of the house. We welcome our third little boy Maverick. -

He wanted Rustic. Like real rustic. (Tin ceilings. Bucket sinks. Log stairs. Barn wood. Rough wood) I wanted Rustic decor. I'm not sure how we got started on that or how we ended up with what we did. But let me tell ya I'm super glad that book is done!

Now that our forever home is here. We basically hate it. It's dark. (Because of the tin and the rustic wood). It's hard to keep clean. It's hard to decorate around. And since we used a ton of old stuff. Things are constantly broke. Needing fixed.

Basically this is the Welcome to our next book. We have decided to remodel the entire barn! And finally do the things we want! Make it the forever home that we wanted but didn't think we could afford. Also I want to change that word "forever home" to "home base". Forever is so permanent. We are adventure seekers. Dreamers. I think we need a home base. And have dreams everywhere.

Chapter one...the remodel...

Welcome to our story.
Welcome to the family
Welcome.

Faithfully yours - Jess

Mother. Believer. Lover. Dreamer
Adventure Seeker. Wannabe Farmer.
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